Hi, My name is Savannah, and I have issues.

I have issues with everything.

Depression.

My art.

Sadness.

Sleeping.

Eating.

Friends.

Food.

Loneliness.

Heights.

People.

Computers.

Music.

Animals.

Being Happy.

Making Friends.

Motivation.

Bullies.

Everything.

I am extremely depressed right now, 

I keep thinking of killing myself.

I would never kill myself, I just keep thinking about it.

I want to cry so badly, but if I cry, my parents will flip out, I don't want to have to bare an awkward conversation with my mom yelling at me again.
I want to talk to Mason, but he seems to be ignoring me. 

I miss him so much, I just want to talk to him, talking to him makes everything better.
It's like a remedy, Every time I talk to him, everything is better, even for a little while, I sleep better after I talk to him.

I am obsessing over little things, like Adam deleting my suggestion for a cheer off of our FB page, I MADE that page, and he has taken it over.

I want to disappear.
I want to talk to Mason.
I want my parents to finally understand me.

I drew this, if anyone cares.

Because nobody will listen.

I am depressed and sick of no one noticing.
I listen to everyone complain, I don't care what it is, I always listen and support them.
Nobody does that for me.

I've been interested in archery for, what is it, three or four years now.
Well, my dad, who is supposed to teach me how to shoot with a bow, but he'd rather take Mackenzie out shooting with her rifle.

I only have about three friends my age that hung out with me, two of which, live far away now.
The other is too busy to text/talk/IM me anymore, sometime's it feels like she is just ignoring me.

I can't even get people to talk to me online, I sat on iscribble for over an hour, waiting for someone to come into the same room as me.
even WHILS is ignoring me, every RP, topic and chat I make or comment on, dies.
Nobody bothers to talk to me on dA either, I am such novice that nobody bothers.

My mom won't ask me about anything, and I don't have enough courage to try to talk about anything expect manga and things I've read, then everyone complains that that is all I talk about.

I quit expecting anything or getting excited about anything, because once I do, mom or dad suddenly decide not to go/do whatever it was.

Everyone that likes me always end up moving away.

I'm not allowed to wear/get any of the styles I like.

Everyone besides Amanda, left class.

I'm the only one in the house that gets used or handy-down computers/phones/technology/furniture.

I can't go to any clubs/sports or meet any new people because I am home schooled or it's too far away, too much money, my parents just don't want to drive me.

My mom said she'd talk to her friend/partner-like person about me getting a small weekly job-type thing, but she always 'forgets' even though I put reminders on her cell phone.

I'm only posting this on here because I need to vent.

Here is a drawing/screenie of a drawing I made in iScribble, I made the Chibi, the other drawing belongs to someone else.