I am depressed and sick of no one noticing.
I listen to everyone complain, I don't care what it is, I always listen and support them.
Nobody does that for me.
I've been interested in archery for, what is it, three or four years now.
Well, my dad, who is supposed to teach me how to shoot with a bow, but he'd rather take Mackenzie out shooting with her rifle.
I only have about three friends my age that hung out with me, two of which, live far away now.
The other is too busy to text/talk/IM me anymore, sometime's it feels like she is just ignoring me.
I can't even get people to talk to me online, I sat on iscribble for over an hour, waiting for someone to come into the same room as me.
even WHILS is ignoring me, every RP, topic and chat I make or comment on, dies.
Nobody bothers to talk to me on dA either, I am such novice that nobody bothers.
My mom won't ask me about anything, and I don't have enough courage to try to talk about anything expect manga and things I've read, then everyone complains that that is all I talk about.
I quit expecting anything or getting excited about anything, because once I do, mom or dad suddenly decide not to go/do whatever it was.
Everyone that likes me always end up moving away.
I'm not allowed to wear/get any of the styles I like.
Everyone besides Amanda, left class.
I'm the only one in the house that gets used or handy-down computers/phones/technology/furniture.
I can't go to any clubs/sports or meet any new people because I am home schooled or it's too far away, too much money, my parents just don't want to drive me.
My mom said she'd talk to her friend/partner-like person about me getting a small weekly job-type thing, but she always 'forgets' even though I put reminders on her cell phone.
I'm only posting this on here because I need to vent.
Here is a drawing/screenie of a drawing I made in iScribble, I made the Chibi, the other drawing belongs to someone else.
I'm so sorry I had no idea that was going on.
ReplyDeleteNow I feel bad for you.
Now I'm tearing up.
So sorry.
I wish I can help.
Sorry I'm not a good friend.
But don't feel sorry for me.
I will be ok.
If you need everything.
Email me.
Ok. =S
Oh Savannah your are loved more than me.
ReplyDeleteBelieve me you are.
You know all your friends and family love you more everything.
Like me.
I love you.
And All of us are going to be ignored someday.
and I'm sorry you are be ignored.
I have beg ignored too you know.
By my family and friends.
But Being ignored can making you stronger.
I believe? =/
But if you don't believe me.
Then.
I don't know that to do. >.<
Just remember that I love you.
I'm trying not to cry.
You know.
I'm so sorry.
I will never try to ignored you.
And sorry if you thought I was.
I know that I'm Amanda.
And I can crazy.
And that I can act cute at times.
But I do that so people can like me.
And that is not me.
Oh crap.
....... Not about me.
Sorry.
You are Awesome.
Savannah.
I will always love you.
You can do everything.
If you put your mind to it.
Remember You are who you are.
Be Strong!! XD
Love Amanda!