Hi, My name is Savannah, and I have issues.

I have issues with everything.

Depression.

My art.

Sadness.

Sleeping.

Eating.

Friends.

Food.

Loneliness.

Heights.

People.

Computers.

Music.

Animals.

Being Happy.

Making Friends.

Motivation.

Bullies.

Everything.

I am extremely depressed right now, 

I keep thinking of killing myself.

I would never kill myself, I just keep thinking about it.

I want to cry so badly, but if I cry, my parents will flip out, I don't want to have to bare an awkward conversation with my mom yelling at me again.
I want to talk to Mason, but he seems to be ignoring me. 

I miss him so much, I just want to talk to him, talking to him makes everything better.
It's like a remedy, Every time I talk to him, everything is better, even for a little while, I sleep better after I talk to him.

I am obsessing over little things, like Adam deleting my suggestion for a cheer off of our FB page, I MADE that page, and he has taken it over.

I want to disappear.
I want to talk to Mason.
I want my parents to finally understand me.

I drew this, if anyone cares.

Camp at Bear lake! -Late post- Day Two (2/7)

(Sorry if it gets confusing or I say something out of order)

After waking up and refusing hot chocolate(I only did this on Monday)

We went to breakfast, after I spent ten minutes trying to wake up Acacia(How do people sleep so soundly? I wake up at the slightest noise)

I remember Monday's breakfast was waffles and fake eggs, 

I cannot eat fake eggs, mainly since I have been eating farm fresh eggs for over three years now.

I remember that I tripped for something and one of my waffles fell onto the floor, Justin told me it was safe to eat and then tried to dump the waffles he didn't want on my plate(I can hardly eat very much anyways, why do this?)

After breakfast, one of the staff showed us where the female staff showers are.

Then we had our own flag ceremony, since Monday's was canceled.

I cannot remember what we had for lunch(blondeblondeblonde)

But I am pretty sure that was when the games before meals started.

First we sing a song, then one troop says the prayer, that troop gets to be first in line.

Then they will ask the SPLs for objects or have a kid from each troop do something like, dance, stand on their hands, ect.

Whichever troop wins that round gets to get in line.

After lunch I had Archery 1.

Have I ever mentioned how much I love archery?

Plus the instructors where nice.

They are, Talon, Fisher, and Josh.

Talon ran the range while Fisher and Josh did the building arrows and bowstrings part.

Talon was probably my favourite out of the BLAB staff, he was nice to everyone.

After Archery 1, we had free time until dinner, 

dinner and every meal after it also had the game things, which I thought was fun.

Then we had the Opening ceremony at the Campfire Bowl.

The staff performed skits and then they retired a flag, after that we went back to camp, and played Mafia, 

I didn't start playing until the middle of the game.

Yet they still hung me!

Then Chris was killed(It was like the whole troop was out to get him!)

Well, after that we went to bed.

Later that night, Gavin was coughing his head off, Acacia was yelling from her tent for him to get his inhaler.

He ignored her, then finally she gets up, then tells me to get up and help.

We got his inhaler from Tonya, 

When we went over to William and his tent, they wouldn't answer.

If it had just been Gavin's tent, Acacia would have opened the door, but since he was sharing with William, we got Justin, who was next to them.

Justin starts complaining that his pants where on backwards, then he opens his door, forgetting that the screen was still there, and ran straight into it(I couldn't quit laughing, he reminded me so much of when some of our chickens got stuck in a small building that had a glass door)

Justin was angry and threw the inhaler at Gavin's face...

Then we went back to bed.

~MewMewSensei(Savannah)

I've neglected to post x blogger was down

I am so sorry!

The nine people following me probably didn't notice xD

ANYWAYS!

My.Mom/Dad.Said.They.Would.Start.Teaching.Me.How.To.Drive.

I already drive our bobcat xD

So I don't expect this to be too different.

I also am joining Venture Scouts.

What is Venture Scouts you might ask?

It a division of Boy Scouts, that focus on doing really really cool things.

Like shooting(Not like I haven't done that before) and camping for like, two weeks, going out of the country, and tons of other things!

So, yeah xD

~Savannah Sensei