Moab.

Moab.

 Photo by Xavier on my camera cause he stole it on this hike.

Moab was amazing.

So very amazing.

I went on a COPE course, Had a panic attack(Fear of heights yey), Went hiking twice, sang campfire songs, ate lotsa food, made breakfast for fifty five people, and packed up.

Well there was much more than that, but, The highlights are up there.

 Dana B taking pictures when we first got there.

Photos taken by me.

Once I get some more photos I'll post some more.

~Savvi

Oops I lied.

Meh, You see, Our President is a bit...special, in a bad way.
Fuck.
You see, Two weeks ago, She decided that for <her> and <her mom's> activity this summer, That we would go get fitted for backpacks at the local camp/outdoor store.
Now, This being <her> activity, She is supposed to set it up.
She refused to call them, after her mother snapped at the entire crew for "Not ever doing things on our own"
and an awkward four minutes of silence until I volunteered to help out of panic.

So I got this entire fitting for our crew set up, and guess what? Only two others(My good friends, Xavier and Lindsay) show up.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.

Now, Let's go back about...three weeks?

So our President is sitting at a desk working on her Gold award speech.
A troop leader walks over to her and I(Who was helping another leader at the same desk) and he asks, very politely "(Hername), Is the Crew staying with the troop, or Independently for Moab"
(Moab is the annual trip everyone in the troop and crew goes on)
She says "I'll think about it, and tell you later"
He nods, and leaves.
About twenty minutes later, after talking to the leaders in charge of the trip, he comes back.
"(Hername), It turns out we need to know, Now, like, right now"
She replies that she will get back with him, now these two have never gotten along because he is strict about rules with her.
He again, sighs "We need to know tonight"
He left, and I turned and started debating the benefits of staying with them(Which I wanted) and not,
Eventually she agreed with me, purely to get me to shut up.
I walked over to the leader, Told him we are staying with the troop.
He was amazed I got it done.

Well, We are expected to help out, since they supply everything.
So I planned for us to cook breakfast, Simple, right?
No.
So I was just told, make a meal plan and give it to the patrol in charge of  food.
Ahahahaha. no.
So I made the plan, Then found out from the President's mom, That we need to keep it under $2 a person.
So we worked on it.
Then she threw "Oh we need to have stuff for vegans to eat"
Tonight she kept lying, and telling me that I had to figure out how to get the food.
Now I am stressed, and crying, Due to giving Lindsay a ride, and my sister, I barely spoke to Mason.
I wish I could cry to him.
I really wish I could just cry and snuggle, and be safe and not be screamed at for it.
He'd probably let me too, if I was better at crying in front of people, I can't, I've made it such a habit.
I wish he would just finish up at Job Corps and come home.
Home is good, Home is with me, Home is not five hundred and eighty miles away from me.
Home is where I know I can be with you, and not be scared of everything because you are around.

This sucks.
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Savvi.

I plan on posting after next weekend

Nope. Not today.
Try again next Monday. The 22nd.

I miss him

I feel lost.

I don't belong in school.

Nobody really wants me there.

I can tell.

Nobody wants me around.

Nobody really likes me.

I miss Mason.

I miss his hugs.

I want to cry all the time.

I accidentally missed a call from him.

I feel really bad.

He probably won't call until Wednesday now.

I miss him too much.

It isn't fair.

My Heart was stolen to South Dakota.

Mason left to South Dakota to go to the Job Corps boarding school thing. 

He left on Friday, I think I have cried every night since Tuesday(We found out that he had to leave Friday instead of Feb. 11th)

We had Winter Biathlon on Saturday, Everyone there felt like someone was missing, it was Mason, he goes to EVERY Scout event.

I don't think in the two years I've known him that he has missed something.

He stole my heart and left to go to South Dakota.

I don't get to see him until January.

His mother and I have been trying to contact him since Friday with no luck, though the school will call her if something bad happens, We think he has to earn points for tech usage.

So now we end up calling each other every few days to see if one of us has been contacted.

I miss him so much.

It's unfair.

He won't be back until at least next year.

The longest you can stay is two years.

He plans to come back next year.

Hopefully the course he chose is only a year.

I wish he could talk to me.
I need to hear his voice.

I am going to mail him a Valentine's gift or letter.

I haven't decided.
Maybe they will let him have it.

I hope they do.
They can't say no contact.

That is wrong.

wrong

wrong

wrong

It is unfair.

He should be allowed to make phone calls.

He should be allowed to send emails.

They should at least have public phones and PC's if they say no to having your own.

I hope he can contact me.

I would feel so much better.

~

School is okay.

I love the classes I'm taking(Improv. 1 and sewing 1)

But, as far a social/friends.

I don't belong.

I really don't.

They are only letting me eat with them to be polite.

I doubt they want me there.

It's so awkward.

I think I will start eating alone.

Maybe that is less awkward.

I don't know.

I am bad with people.

I cannot attach myself to them.

I am sorry.

~

Scouts is weird.

The end.

Mason needs to be there.

~ 

I am making necklaces, if someone wants to buy one email me.

Dearest Daddy.

Dear 'Daddy'

I don't know how I feel about you.

You've never liked me, I've known this for quite some time, I was in denial, I will admit that much.

But what is a girl to do?

I know you will always love my sister and your girlfriend more.

You've never been interested in me.

You gave up on my archery.

You gave up on Venturing, Which I joined because it was supposed to be something for us to do together.

You never call.

Or text.

Or email.

You just ignore me.

There has never been effort on your part.

It's always what Mackenzie wants to do.

It's always what Mackenzie wants.

Then, maybe if some money, or anything is left over, then maybe Savannah gets something.

I decided to leave, To move in with mom.

What did you do? You said "Okay" then went to go hang out with Mackenzie and your girlfriend.

You didn't care what I did.

You left me alone.

Now when I text or call to get the small remainder of my things back, All you do is tell me how much better my sister is, and how much of a failure I am.

When I text because my phone is supposed to be paid by you, I get accused of never trying to contact you.

I don't try anymore.

You don't care about me.

You don't care what I am doing.

You don't care.

You never try.

You aren't getting my new phone number.

Lonely

The Holiday season is lonely for me.

 All of my friends are off seeing family, or just don't have time for me.

Tonight my mom is busy working, she won't get back until around twelve.

Mason is up in a cabin with his family.

Amanda is probably in Fruita for the week.

No idea what Lindsay is up to.

I've realized I am envious of people who are close to their families.

What is it like to have people that you know have your back?

What is it like having someone to share secrets, and things to?

What's it like to talk to someone openly?

I don't understand.

I want to.

But I am bad at relationships with anyone.

I don't truly trust anyone, no matter how 'open' I seem to people.

I don't like the Holidays that much.

They are lonely.

I will probably make a separate post dedicated to my dad soon.

Love,

MewMew.  

Helix Piercing and some stuff.

I got a double helix piercing on Saturday. <3
Also, For my birthday(11.11.12) I got an ASUS Tablet and keyboard.
I got a PS3 though I'm buying it myself(Paying mom back I mean)

Oooh, Did I mention I live with my mom now? Because my dad is a heartless jerk unfit for being a father.
So now I live in Glenwood Springs, and I get to hang out with my boyfriend and friends and have fun.

As all hell breaks lose (Lindsay and Savannah vent)"

Haunted House is really frick'n evil.

Savannah is writing in this colour.

Lindsay in this colour.

"Going to the 13th Floor is cancelled because our Haunted House YOUR(S and L) room isn't finished"

what the hell?!? since when is this right? only OUR room wasn't up to par

so why cancel because you hate us? we could have gotten it done thank you very much!!!!

Honestly? We had a SINGLE EFFING THING TO DO. 

We have to wait because of a TWENTY FOUR HOUR EPOXY.

So, I stayed up until TWO A.M. cleaning, so I could go?

You are really really getting on my nerves.

 By the way i think i killed savannah a little bit...............sorry

"So we'll put up balloons to look like Slendy's face."

I AM SLENDY, EFF YOU.
NOT SOME MUTHABUKKING BALLOONS.
/Pops balloons/

Honestly they don't look like faces. they look like balloons.

they look like balloons that are just hanging out and doing whatever but maybe i don't

 have an imagination?

"I didn't turn on your fog machine" -From a kid this time, a freaking annoying one that lies, constantly.

egiuwfgwkeufgwkjeugflqgrflwieufgl.
I wish to through him out the window with the urinal.


with that being said, we arent stupid. we left WITH EVERYTHING OFF! and we come back and its fucking cloudy i feel like a cat coughing up a hairball and i cant see a few inches in front of my face.

Feel free to lie to us again and we may throw you out the window............of a moving bus that is.

"Oh yeah your wall got torn down"
THE ACTUAL FUCK.
WHY?
AND THEN YOU YELL AT US ABOUT NOT HAVING ANYTHING DONE /IN/ THE ROOM.
WELL WE JUST FIXED THE WALL FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME BECAUSE YOU AND YOUR ANNOYING BRAT OF A SON CAN'T NAVIGATE A LADDER THROUGH A ROOM.

LEAVE OUR DAMN WALLS ALONE! WHAT THE FUCK DID THEY EVER DO TO YOU?

THAT'S RIGHT NOTHING!!!LKASGRHASFKHFSDALK

It was later implied that we don't have control over what's in our room, and that infact, everyone else is in charge of it, we just put things together, but first we must read their minds.

Nooope.

Screw off.
Mine.
My room.

Not yours.

i will be very honest I DON'T HAVE THE FUCKING ABILITY! when you know how to get it let me know

i dont really want it but i can tell  you where to shove it though............

Our crew leaders leave a lot of people out of the loop.

THIS WILL STOP! i don't really like this at all this is so stupid

why leave people out? it only makes me want to shoot you in the face with a brick

and besides its not nice.......and this is coming from me!

Bricks are amazing.
Back to the point, I usually don't get told, unless they want me to tell others.

Most of the crew is high or not entirely there...

The only crew members I respect anymore are Mason, Xavier, Lindsay, and Dana...
Common sense isn't so common, and they seem to want to merge with the douchebaggy older troop boys we have...

there's this wonderful thing called OPEN A DAMN DOOR learn it live it love it and maybe you'll survive..........

She's talking about how our crew president and two guys from another crew shut themselves into a room whilst painting.... They where very very high.

 ...with yaoi.

STOP MOLESTING MY BOYFRIEND, JACOB, YOU STUPID EFFING FREAK.
He's a stupid perverted freak. i should know. he was staring at my ass for almost half an hour

and he should be locked in a room with yaoi and the spoiled brat. they would have fun....but i don't want to know about it . and kissing my brother's shoulder?!?!? that's just creepy KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF UNLESS YOU WANT TO LOSE YOUR..............

Nobody but Lindsay, Pat, Jacob and I where there one day, I put my music on, WHY THE HELL DID IT GET TURNED OFF? oh yeah, because only Adam, Acacia and Ladibel can play music.
Kind of disrespectful, and really hurt, what happened to letting everyone get a chance, I cannot stand pop music...
dubstep, same pop music over and over again, some weird shit i haven't heard of.....no thank you variety is very much appreciated 
"We have 800 bucks, which pretty much means that it is only going to us" -not exact quote, they've been implying that we need to not spend anything on our rooms, while they go and buy GOOD lumber, and GOOD things for their rooms, while we get SHITTY lumber and SHITTY things for ours.

I will die in the costume that you bought because it's a MAN'S SUIT, not a womans, and it is a MILLION sizes to big for me, and why can't we use any money? we've spent, maybe, $10 bucks?
everything is not about you. we're in this too you know.
so stop being selfish and share damn it. Shall we all go back to kindergarten and learn to share again?

That is it for now~ We will come back eventually, the crew is a nice place to find things to vent about. c:

~Savannah. Lindsay

Shucks this sucks.

AS MUCH AS I EFFING LOVE THE CREW.

Haunted House can be fun, but our leaders become utter jerks.

Yeh, I'm sorry, you want me to RUSH RUSH RUSH and HURRY UP and FINISH IN THREE SECONDS?

Oh, well, sorry NONE of us are going to focus on our manners, be happy that we are not cussing you out for being like this, cause I already feel like crap, you telling me why I am a failure, or taking away anything I need/want is just making me feel worse.

"Well...Shad said you barely acted in the room last year"

OH WELL I AM SO EFFING SORRY FOR NOT UNDERSTANDING WHAT ACTING IS, IT IS OBVIOUSLY JUST STANDING BEHIND A CURTAIN UNTIL THE LAST SECOND THEN MAKING A GRUNTING NOISE.

"Well... You can't be the victim in Mason's room cause you two are dating...You'll never shut up"

Soooo, YOU WANT ME TO ACT IN A ROOM WITH SOMEONE LIKE SHAD AGAIN?

He.pushed.me.into.the.props.I.had.bruises.

AND NOTICE THAT BEFORE YOU SAID THIS I SAT ACROSS FROM HIM WHILE YOUR DAUGHTER USED HIM TO GET AN AWARD AND I SAID /NOTHING// FOR AN HOUR.

"I'm sorry, but I don't think Lindsay or Levis is fit for this role in your room, They need to be small and run around quickly"

I EFFING THINK I KNOW WHO MY ROOM NEEDS, AND IT IS NOT A SMALL CHILD.

"Well...how are you going to hide your 'lady lumps"
WELL... YOU SEE THERE IS THIS THING, IT IS CALLED "BINDING".

"More working, less goofing off"
WE ARE NOT GOOFING OFF, WE ARE LAUGHING AND GIGGLING AS WE WORK BECAUSE WE ARE FRIENDS AND GIRLS, ALSO, WORK FOR THIS SHOULD BE FUN.

"Dana said she quit, and left for a day, you did the same thing without saying you quit"
OKIE, HEY LADY, EFF THE HELL OFF, I DIDN'T SAY I QUIT CAUSE I DIDN'T QUIT.
I TOOK A BREAK FROM YOU AND YOUR JERKISH WAYS.

"You need to be grateful for the parents and leaders help, This is YOUR haunted house"
Really doesn't feel like it, yeh know, cause I haven't got to keep any of my ideas..at all.
Also you are kind of a B-I-T-C-H.



So yeh, this is what I've dealt with since...September started.
When I remember/hear more stupidity, I'll post it.

Haunted House...

It's that time of year again.
Shoot.

ya know when you love something yet have to go through all this hell for it?

and end up in tears and wonder "Why did I do this?"

Well...I can't say how I feel right now, they're starting to do that discreet bullying thing again, everything I try to do end up in "I don't think so"'s and I want to curl up and cry.

so apart from the Haunted house, I have moved across my small town, I now live with my dad, and my mom is going to end up in Glenwood eventually, I've agreed to part time, because honestly, my parents both treat me the same, they just want to be with my sister, I'm just the one that is there, that they have to figure out what to do with.

But, I've come up with a word for the three of my family members...

Immature.

It'd be nice to quietly work things out, but none of them will, it always turns into some stupid yelling match.

I think I'll just hide until I can see Mason, and then hide somemore.

I might drop by Amanda's house later too...

BAM Muthabuckkers.

Is it surprising that I am still alive?

lol...

ANYHOW.

I have moved, yes? Sort of, I am almost out of the old house, which I spent fourteen of the (almost) sixteen years I have been alive in.

It is sort of weird, but okay, I guess.

I mean, it doesn't really matter, cause I cannot consider any of these places "home".

Sometimes I laugh, I call the new place the duplex, and the old place the old house.

I prefer not being anywhere that my family considers "home"

I'd rather be with Mason.

He's the best.

I just can't see him until Tuesday. :'c

anyways, I figured I'd post something, just cause my blog seems a bit left out(I lurk everywhere)

So have a picture of me cosplaying Scootaloo and being with Slenderman at NDK.

Nuuuurrrrrr.

Guys...

I need prescription contacts/glasses...

I'm getting contacts for a month to see if I like them.

Well that'll be interesting(I'm getting them on Tuesday).

Also I'm moving within the next two-three weeks, and rest assured Amanda, I'm just moving into town(I tried to reply to your last comment but it won't alert you) I'll be in a duplex above City Market, So no biggie.

I'm going to go to a music in the park thing and then hiking on Sunday with my dad, sis, and a friend, We're night hiking up to Hanging Lake under the moon~

and last Saturday I went to a Flobots concert, and I got to hang out with the band(They're plain amazing, okay).

On Monday I'm going to hang out with Mason~ <3

I guess that's it for now~

Neglect. xD

I may have forgotten about you guys, sorry. xD

But, I have my distractions, Good and bad, such as,

Maaaassooon. <3

Venturing. <3

Haunted House.

Scout a rama.

NDK con.

Flobots Concert with Olivia.

Friends.

My new bunny.

Work.

School.

Divorce.

Moving.

Sometime soon I may be bothered to write a proper entry, but as for now, I'll just goof off of my blogger duties.

I told myself I'd wait.

Until I had something decent to post.
But I am feeling really down, so I'm just going to try not to cry and just be sad for a bit.
I am incredibly lonely, although there are people around, I don't have anyone I feel safe talking to anymore, I don't have any pets,
I feel awful, I want to cuddle with someone and just cry but, like I said, there isn't anyone I would feel comfortable crying to.
I wish I had a pet.
I need someone who won't judge me,
I need someone who doesn't think I'm worthless.

Now dad says I can get an Akita, but only an Akita, he says no other breed.
I'm not allowed to get a cat, and Akitas are expensive and hard to get.
So, in the time I need a buddy the most, I'm not allowed to have one.

Why did Basia have to go?
Why did my buddy have to leave me when I truly needed that comfort?
why do human beings have to be so judgmental?

I'll disappear now, I guess, nobody probably even bothered to read any of this anyways.

-Savannah

I am silent for reasons

Cause people who know my family irl follow me here.

Sorry guys, but for now my family situation is supposed to be 'kept to ourselves', Luckily my parents haven't found this blog. xD

Or my Tumblr.

GUYS I AM SAD.

My boyfriend is in Arizona for a week. ;a;

My bestie is probably still sick.

and I hung out with Olivia on the forth and fifth.

I HAVE LESS RL FRIENDS THAN THERE ARE DAYS OF THE WEEK(rl friends, that I can see irl)

NUUUUUUUU.

I will now go continue to tell the wildlife that I love them and ask them not to leave me. ;a;

ALSO MAYBE PICTURES IF MY NEW PHONE WILL LET ME POST THEM. >.<

Durrr hurr hurr.

Sorry I've been dead lately.

WHY THE HELL ARE SWIM TOPS FIFTY THREE FREAKING BUCKS?

REALLY!?

;a;

I am a broke homeschooler who needs a new swimsuit, and if the /top/ alone is fifty, I don't even want to know what the bottom is.

;a;a;a;a;a;a;a;a;a;a;a;a;a;a;

WHHHHHHYYYYYYY.

/goes to die of suffocation in her old one-piece.

A Birthday shout out!

Because I know she follows my blog. <3

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLEY!!!

My best friend in Georgia!

I miss you~

Love, Savannah Taylor Puckett.

Moab

I am getting my mom's old camera(Which is like, less than a year old!)
and going to Moab on Friday, I hope to get a lotta pictures with both cameras. c:

I am getting a root canal tomorrow. ;a;

But MOAB.
Moab is fuuuun, according to everyone in Scouts, this is an annual trip the troop and crew makes every year to see the carshow and go do things, I am signed up to go on a three mile bike trip, which should be nothing compared to my sister and my eight+ mile bike trips around to New Castle and back(I live about three miles out of town)

Ehehehehe and Mason is going biking as well, Dana and Sheabrea are going canyoneering with the other group. xD

My legs are so ugly, they are sunburnt and chubby. >:C
Whatever, I will where my adorable shorts cause they don't get caught in the chain of my bike. xD

Trees

Buying a tree from Field Direct Trees gives my Troop/Crew money to fund our trips, Field Direct Trees is only open to the public for ONE day, So stop on by, Meet some Scouts, There will be a concession stand from what I'm hearing. :)