Lonely

The Holiday season is lonely for me.

 All of my friends are off seeing family, or just don't have time for me.

Tonight my mom is busy working, she won't get back until around twelve.

Mason is up in a cabin with his family.

Amanda is probably in Fruita for the week.

No idea what Lindsay is up to.

I've realized I am envious of people who are close to their families.

What is it like to have people that you know have your back?

What is it like having someone to share secrets, and things to?

What's it like to talk to someone openly?

I don't understand.

I want to.

But I am bad at relationships with anyone.

I don't truly trust anyone, no matter how 'open' I seem to people.

I don't like the Holidays that much.

They are lonely.

I will probably make a separate post dedicated to my dad soon.

Love,

MewMew.