@Darkbreeze,
I do tell them I love them, everyday, I give my mom hugs all the time, I've told them parts of this, I quit smiling and acting happy the last few days, yet all I got was my mom telling me to smile.
The reason I have this blog is to vent, because, like I said I only have a few friends, none of which truly want to hear my problems, I don't have anyone to talk to in real life, once you go for almost a year through all the stress of knowing everyone's secrets and them venting to you, while you can't vent back.
It hurts, I cannot go tell my bestfriend that my sister did this or that my parents did that like normal people do, I never get to spend any real time with her anymore, and I can't say ANYTHING in front of my sister or else she will tell Acacia, who will change it and embarrass me in front of my BSA troop.
I cannot go on a walk without my sister saying something rude and hurtful about my body/personality/whatever to me while noone is around to here it, and if I tell my parents they do nothing about it.
I can't tell my bestfriend something because my parents do not want anyone to know, she reads my blog so I can't even post about it, even though I really really want her to know.
And talking to my parents, I've done that, except for the fact that I get nervous while talking to ANYONE, which makes my voice sometimes sound whiny, or I freak out and start talking about anime/art/BSA.
They hate that and normally walk away instead of listening to me.
I do tell them I love them, everyday, I give my mom hugs all the time, I've told them parts of this, I quit smiling and acting happy the last few days, yet all I got was my mom telling me to smile.
The reason I have this blog is to vent, because, like I said I only have a few friends, none of which truly want to hear my problems, I don't have anyone to talk to in real life, once you go for almost a year through all the stress of knowing everyone's secrets and them venting to you, while you can't vent back.
It hurts, I cannot go tell my bestfriend that my sister did this or that my parents did that like normal people do, I never get to spend any real time with her anymore, and I can't say ANYTHING in front of my sister or else she will tell Acacia, who will change it and embarrass me in front of my BSA troop.
I cannot go on a walk without my sister saying something rude and hurtful about my body/personality/whatever to me while noone is around to here it, and if I tell my parents they do nothing about it.
I can't tell my bestfriend something because my parents do not want anyone to know, she reads my blog so I can't even post about it, even though I really really want her to know.
And talking to my parents, I've done that, except for the fact that I get nervous while talking to ANYONE, which makes my voice sometimes sound whiny, or I freak out and start talking about anime/art/BSA.
They hate that and normally walk away instead of listening to me.
The one person I thought would actually listen(My mom's best friend)
about camp, didn't, because my mom went and told her the half of it I told to my parents.
She snapped at me, saying she didn't want to here it.
I had left somethings out, because I was afraid my over-protective mom would have me taken out of scouts.
But, like I said earlier, this blog was created for me to vent.
And actually, they ended up not letting me sell art, they left me at the house all weekend.
~Savannah.
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