And she asks why?

My mom is always saying "and it is like you have no motivation!"

Every day, I hear this.

I haven't said it to her yet.

But why aren't I motivated?

Hmm, Well, first off.

Anything and everything I am interested in, You shoot down.

I wanted to learn to skateboard.

"No, you will hurt yourself".

I thought it'd be fun to learn how to make different coffee drinks.

"No, Why would you ever want to do that."

Art.

"YOU CAN'T MAKE A LIVING OFF OF ART!"

She is always saying.

"You are always drawing, getting nothing done!"

No, I haven't drawn very much actually.

I haven't been able to, Since you are always telling me it is worthless,

Then I see her praising my younger sister, after she traced some Beatles pictures.

MY ART IS ORIGINAL, I SPEND HOURS WORKING ON IT, YET MY 13 YEAR OLD SISTER CAN TRACE PHOTOS AND YOU ACTUALLY LOOK AT IT AND PRAISE HER!

I draw on myself when I am upset or stressed.

You yell at me to wash it off, yet my sister can draw on herself, and YOU PRAISE HER!

She draws on everything, and YOU PRAISE HER!

I start doodling on my desk and you scream at me, my sister SAWS THROUGH HER DESK AND YOU PRAISE HER!

My dad avoids and ignores me, instead he brags about my sister, takes her and gets her stuff.

I have always been there for you mom, I have listened to every little problem.

Now you are always with my sister, dad goes off on his own most of the time.

You are spoiling my sister, the second she wants something, YOU GET IT FOR HER.

If I want something, or need something, like shampoo, then no, "you are fine using what is in the bathroom."

I CANNOT USE THAT STUFF, IT RUINS MY HAIR!

You know that, You know that I need different products than the rest of the family.

Yet you ignore that fact.

You let my sister get by with everything, yet if I say anything to her, I get screamed at.

Then you ask why I am depressed.

Why the hell do you think?

I just want someone to bother with me for once.

Savannah.