Laughing whilst on a sugar-high

Am I the only one that now realizes what 'sugar high' means? I mean my parents said it, but we never talked about drugs in our household, so now that I'm older I'm like 'wow, they meant something else' xD

The guys aren't ignoring me any more.

I guess it is hard to ignore someone that plays dumb as well as myself.

I am really good at that, Playing dumb, I mean.

I think that by how innocent I've been acting lately, That the ones ignoring me think that I don't actually know what's going on. haha.

I do, I just prefer not to get stuck on it, I mean, if my mother would stop I don't know... fuelling the fire, I'd be alright with the 'evil ones'

I am really good at tolerating, and I just want the crew to be happy again. 

But noooooo, mommy thinks I should defend myself, and make everyone else's lives hell.

Nope.

I want to go to Moab by myself, if she goes she'll likely ruin it for me. :/

The reason they are ignoring me is because she did her stupid 'Savannah feels...' thing.

I effing hate that. -.-

My best friend and sister even realize how unfair I get treated by my parents! 

For crying out loud. >.<

Ohwell, My sister is being nice to me, mostly due to my dad leaving her at home, and now she wants her big sister back, THANK YOU PUBERTY, SHE IS OUT OF THE ANGRY-THIRTEEN-YEAR-OLD-GIRL-THAT-HATES-EVERYTHING STAGE.

;a; I now get to be a role-model again.
and she said she would not invade my Venture crew and steal my friends away, she wants her /own/ friends now. ^^


I must leave, Byebye~

~Savannah

To think

To think that I actually thought I might have had friends.

To  think the I respected these people.

How sexist can you be? 

Just because I am a girl, means what?

That if I say "Hi" to you, you can ignore me?

That you avoid me?

That MY OWN VENTURE CREW LEADER WILL NOT EVEN LOOK AT ME?

I admired you guys, really.

I looked up to my leaders.

Am I not worth it?

What did she say to you?

Why won't you acknowledge my presence.

I am here too.

I really am, I just want someone to say "Hey, Savannah, you're okay."

Can nobody accept me?

Thank you for making this ongoing depression worse.

Thank you so effing much.

I really only wanted someone or something to tell me that I am 'okay' that I am not some worthless piece of crap left to rot.

I actually valued your opinions highly, I took whatever you said literally.

I tried to ask for help.

You shoved me into a sled.

I tried to voice my opinion.

You ignored me.

I tried to stick with the group.

You left me behind and ditched me.

But not Mason and Dana.

No, Dana actually comes over to hang out with ME.

Mason actually tries helping me.

Dana asks for my help, even if I have none to give, at least I know that I am needed.

Mason actually comes over just to poke me and play.

I had taught myself not to value boys' opinions, but, the last year changed all that.
Now I realized I shouldn't have stopped that.

Why?

Why am I worthless?

Why can't I have a value?

Why can't you just acknowledge that I am here too?

What does she have that I don't?

She can speak in front of people, I cannot, but she also lies constantly.

It is extremely hard for me to lie, I believe in karma.

I know I have no valuable skills.

Are those reasons really enough to do all that?

I bet you have no idea about this depression that I have.

Throwing myself out of a moving car sounds good. 

Buttons

Guys, I now have a bit of an obsession with those buttons that link to different bloggers' blogs.

I only have three(That I stole from three sisters).

I am making my own later. ^^'

BUT I WANT MOOOOORE.

Please. 

This is basically free advertising for you!

I'll do a button swap once I get mine made, too~

~Mew the bucket signing out~

Some photos

I have some photos from places.

 Some beading supplies.

 Mason and Kevin having an epic moment at Biathlon

 Annnd it's over.

 My dad trying to figure out what the award ceremony was going to be like at Biathlon.

 My sister on a weird bridge thing that goes over a parking lot to some apartments.

I drew this a few months ago, when I still had long hair. 

I fail badly.

I promised everyone a new vlog would be taken at Klondike, and in the excitement of everything, I may have left my video camera in the car. ):

I do have a silly video from the other day when we had to turn the power off because the kitchen almost caught on fire. xD

Hopefully it will load. xD

Throwing things at people.

There are some people who I want to throw bricks at.

Mention their names, and my thoughts are "I wish I had a brick"

Ohwell.

People.

I am not a people person.

I cannot stand them for long, I guess that is why I am constantly ditched, because I let it happen.

Ugh, I just want to stop stressing over silly things, but I cannot. 

Grr.

Here is a ruined work in progress, Fail computer failed and killed the layers.