They wonder why I have motivation issues.

They are always yelling at me "WHY AREN'T YO MOTIVATED TO DO THINGS!"

Well, Would YOU be motivated to do things when everything you do gets bluntly insulted and never have your own parents support you in any way.

My dad just literally told everyone how "pointless and what a waste of time to go to Savannah's Venture crew meetings."

I want to curl up into a ball and cry but if I do then he'll get upset and everyone will yell at me.

I just want to do the things I like, but no.

My art will "never get you anywhere in life"

The only  reason I am in Venturing is because "you only want to socialize" 

Dating Mason is only "Because he gives you attention"

I want to hide, I want to stay away for a while, and I wish they would actually realize that I am NOT LIKE THEM.

Maybe I LIKE drawing, Maybe it is one of the few things that makes ME happy.

Maybe I WANT to do things in the Venture crew, like shooting and camping and getting to do new things. Because maybe that is what makes ME happy.

Maybe I want to go out with Mason because I LIKE him.

Maybe I want to have MY OWN life.


I wish they would notice how depressed I am.

I wish someone did.



Along with some other news.

So I've said yes to Mason, But my parents refuse to say anything.

They think something will happen to me or that because he's seventeen he's going to be sex crazed.

Uh-huh, They also think that somehow I'll get wrapped up in it.

Umm, okay, They don't seem to realise that I don't actually care about sex.

They think that it will bother me that we are different races.

Umm, alrighty then...

I.Do.Not.Care.

They refuse to realise.

I do not care about race, sexuality, gender, hair colour,religion, or whatever.

It means nothing to me.

I like a person for being themselves.

Not because of anything else.